WHYNOT, it sounds very much that you feel as if you are confronted with a "lesser of two evils" choice.
Think in terms of the rest of your lives before you decide which road you choose to go down.
Most of us here now realise that our "loving friends in the truth" - the only "true Christians" on planet earth - were only our friends as long as we subjected ourselves to the cult leaders and their slave-masters.
The best advice I would offer is this; get out into your part of the world and discover new things to do, then you'll find new interests and new friends and acquaintances - sincere people who will actually respect you for being an individual. I wish you both a peaceful journey on your road.